erm today wasnt really good the atmosphere was different from yesterday... erm.. how to say worz..
haiz.. i don know how to start lar... just for those who are concern!! erm... today actually i went there early to hav a talk with my uncle... because my uncle was saying that my grandmother seems to be in pain!!
and like if she really cannot tahan ... then ask those "thingy" to bring her shang lu!! at first i really disagree and tried to change it... until the moment i eat , and suddenly my uncle came in crying and said to me ....
that popo beg him to ask those "thingy" to bring her go... she really really very very pain!! she now already fufil and say all the things she wanna already...
haiz... when he said that.. he tears came down... and i went into deep tot also... haiz wat can the son do when the mother keep begging the son to bring her go... maybe u all don understand... its like asking those god to bring my grandmother soul to heaven !!
and stop all her pain...
actually i was reluctant to agree with them.. because my grand mother after everything rite?? her stroke all that better already , on the outside and the way she tok is so much better ... she know wat she is talking abt...
and the only problem now is high blood pressure ... but i don think that , its just so simple... because she is gettting skinner day by day... and her immune and digestive system has been broken down...
mostly she has to be bed ridden...
erm... so after all my deep tots...i went out and take care of her... erm not until 1 min by looking at her.. i also burst into tears... haiz... just cry lor.. DON KNOW FOR WAT.. SHOULD BE STRONG ...but... just like that lor...
erm...i don know ar... then i stop.. and get back to her... she suddenly hug me and tell me not to cry.. if not she cant 'GO' peacefully... haiz...
its like...i also thinking maybe the best is not to let her suffer... so if she really wanna go.. i will let her go bah!!
erm guys sorry for the late post... erm... cuz.. didnt able to hav time to blog... i didnt go home... after visiting my grand ma... everyday i hav been thinking where to go or who can i tok to...OR TAKE IT AS.. WHO DO I REALLY WANNA TOK OR NEED...
i didnt wanna stay in my grandma house because i don wanna it to be like in the past... whereas i cry also cannot hav sound cannot let her know ... i rather escape from that house.. and think think think alone...
i went to look for eric and brothers after that... then i didnt wanna go home.. so eric was so kind to accompany me.. we hav a long long chat and i went his house and sleep...
so its like i wake up bathe... borrow clothes... and i go see my grand ma again...
