today i really very sad!! sorry if i blog alot of vulgarites eh!! actually i wont lar.. i know alot of girls view my blog!! haiz erm how should i start my day eh!! 2 big blows in a day!! 2 very sad things has happen today eh!! one is i got b3 for my chinese n i was not choosen for dpa!! seriously very sad lar!! haiz i shall first wat actually spoil my day eh!! early in the morning , while walking to school ... i am thinking wat if i didnt do well for chinese !! wat should i do eh!! haiz... aiyo.. nvm so i decided to concentrate on my dnt first!! do finish first!! haiz so while doing... me , qing rong , everyone i know lar ... we are all very worried with the results eh!! seriously very !! haiz actually i was kinda of mentally prepared that i will not do well!! got alot of reasons!! lst: i didnt do finish paper one!! i haven write finish the jie jue fang fa then i zhong jie!! (if ur paper one never do finish sure fail de)2nd: i didnt do finish 2 question which is 10 marks... the last 2 question!! i don know is 6 or 10 marks lar!!3rd : haiz my oral kanna sabo by the teacher!! i don wanna say wat happen eh!! very fedup le!!... my whole class kanna sabo ... and all very sad!! 4th: my listening hav one question wrong!! haiz... seriously not i hav high standard but i should not wrong de!!seriously after thinking all this rite?? i am already well prepared that i will get a merit for oral!! then c5 or 6 for everything!! haiz... i already very sad le lor!!seriously something made it even worse eh!! so much WORSE!! guess wat!! on the day before i am going to take my o lvl chinese results and dpa!! my bloody eye twitch and twitch eh!! haiz...maybe u guys might be thinking its normal or i am over sensitive eh!! let me explain why i am so angry and even sad after my eye twitch eh!! erm since young ar!! since young!! whenever my eye twitch there is something bad going to happen!! so i am always very afraid eh!! some times when it twitch until very li hai!! i will go to the extend not to go out eh!! i am serious eh i never cock eh... in my family , only me and my mum is like something heartly connected !! as only the both of us hav such thingy eh!! very jun !! everytime it twitch and nothing happen to me!!both of us will send each other sms automatcially eh!! really very jun ... erm let me explain to u guys , to some ppl when their eye yield twitch is just the nerve... but to ppl like me we are not!! many bad things has always happen when it twitch that why i believe it so much!! since young eh!! even my brothers eric they all don believe me at first , but years after years they believe me le!! as i tell them something bad may happen!!
so before taking all the results the eye yield twitch lor!! haiz watever lar!! go back class take le lor!! haiz... go ask teacher ... then teacher say 1 A1 ... KINDA OF SHOCK!! cuz my should at least hav 6 A1 ... which is ...qing rong , ziyu , zhimin , lay khean , zhong yin , lastly is me lar!! cuz the first 4 of them is chinese foundation very good de eh... natural de... then the alst 2 is hardworking!! but in the end only zhong yin got it!! congrats! haha!! seriously!! u made 5s2 proud!!haiz... then our class no A2 then all mostly B3 ...i was shock when teacher said i was B3 ...that i was kinda of happy when i heard that results!!?? can u imagine ...u never finish paper 1 and 2... u get b4!! but in the end i heard i got distinction for oral... then my heart drop to the bottom... cuz at first i was thinking oral hai me.. in the end oral help me!! never complete the paper really hai me alot!! haiz... damed sad de!! haiz damed sad eh!! u know really very sad mah!! erm the range of b3 to A2 is like 65 to 70~~ which means if i get to finish one of the paper !! anypaper!! one or 2 at least i get a A2 then don need retake!! sobsob... now give me a ****ing b3!! i am so luan don know wanna retake mah!! i go ask all my friends then all tell me that i should be happy!! never finish paper one and 2 got b3 !! that means not bad le!! ....haiz... seriously nobody know how sad i am..!!awa my chinese A1 de eh.. i wanan use it to pull down my L1R4 eh... haiz.. forget it lar.. u know i am really very very sad leh!! nobody knows how sad i am eh!! the twitch is making it worst!! seriously nobody know how sad i am.. i my heart fell to the bottom sia!! wa lau !! u know from b3 to a2 ... is at the range of 65 to 69 mah!!?? ERM THAT MEANS I EITHER FINISH ONE OF THE PAPER!! i at least get a a2 ....THEN DON NEED RETAKE!! (I KNOW I REPEATING BUT REALLY VERY SAD!!)haiz.. i cant smile eh.. the whole day i smile in school is fake smiles!! i went to ask teacher advice whether to re take or not!! when i was toking and telling to mr muti ... i don know why my eyes starts to fill with tears le eh!! haiz.. the more i say the more sad i am!! i just wanna the day to pass!! eh!! so went home feeling depress ( eye yield still twitching non stop!! )i play games to forget until wenhui came to tell me that dpa results is out.. actually i know but i ku yi don wanna to see!! cuz i know... haiz... twitch until like that le.. so i am well prepared!! actually i am kinda of fedup with this twitching thingy eh!! as it can really spoil my mood the whole day!! but the good thingy is.. !! at least i am mentally well prepared !! haiz.. so i went to see eh!! and just as i expected that i am not choosen!! but like wat i wrote in my previous post eh!! whether hav dpa or not.. i still hav to work hard for poly!! dpa is just a support!! for me... however this support is gone!! i never wanna take tat my eye twitching hai me eh!! all i wanted to say is seriously i very suay!! and second i kinda of hou hui ,that i never do my maths well!! let me explain why eh!! okok?? at the end of the interview rite , then interviewer said this to me !! : erm looking at ur sports background and ur attitude , i don think its a problem for us to let u in ! but seriously the only problem is ur maths..u cant fail ur maths . so we hope u do work hard!! so sad to say... in verbal rite?? they made things like i can go into the dpa thingy but i cannot fail my maths!! that is wat they say at the end of the interview eh!! but seriously i very suay!! u all know wat results they are looking at for the interview??!! which is midyear (for information) that time i didnt had the heart to study ... so i didnt study for mid year!! i decided to fail all of them!! wa... so suay sia.. they took that results.. i got a 4 for all my subjects eh!! and UUUUUUU for my maths!! they never show that i got a 7/100 for maths!! haiz but seriously i am suay and stupid enough to be honest !! honest=stupid?? haiz.. seriously sometimes it really makes human feel confused !! that whether should we be honest or not!! and seriously i regret being honest!! because i tot being honest will give me a better chance!! haiz.. in the end!! thx ar... it made me lost dpa!! this is the conversation !! interviewer: o looking at ur results we can see that ur maths isnt doing quite well yeah?! jeremy: honestly speaking i hav many difficulties in coping o lvls maths!! because looking at my n lvl maths !! i manage to pass eh!! (laughing) its quite a mircale for me already!! interviewer : laugh!! jeremy : despite having the diffculties of coping o lvl maths... seriously i hav the right attitude to learn and do my maths well , i cant gurantee a a1 but at least i will do my best!! interviewer : nooded the head!! one of the interviewer : but do u know the course u choose is not more abt sports and wellness ?? is more abt business and events management!! which consist things like accounting !! and this is all abt maths eh !! so if u cant do well in o lvl maths how are u going to cope??!! jeremy: (shocked= cuz tot this course don really need alot of maths!!) wa o ok...i mean.to me studying wat i am interested in , do really make me strive harder to achieve wat i really wants ... i know having the disadvantage of my maths results ... i am losing out to other ppl who apply dpa eh ! but i am determine to work hard for wat i wan and i am sure i hav the right attitude... so i hope u guys could give me a chance!!interviewer continue to ask , and thx to ivan helping jeremy to do research abt the shcool and course... jeremy is able to impress both of the interviewer ,again and again!! seriouslY!! (end of interview) : so jeremy u do hav the right attitude and i really like it.. coming to our poly will not be a problem for u , just as long u pass ur maths!! so do work hard and NYP WILL BE WAITING FOR U!! this is the whole thingy eh!!?? haiz.. wait my ass man.. its like bluff me lor.. but i seriously never blame anyone.. because verbal don counts anything!! and i think i am stupid to be honest abt my maths!! i should say some personal incident happen during that period !! since i am so good and bluffing ppl!! but i really don wanna lor!! i tot honesty will being me good and better results!! ....haiz... wat ever lar ... seriously hor damed stupid lar.. now dpa is gone meaning i need to work 2 times harder!! i regret that i never lie abt my maths!! using verbal i sure can lie abt my maths!! so i can get my dpa first.. then results that say!! but i never!! haiz i hope god in heaven will really bless me hard now!! because i really need his blessing!! i feel so lost now!! being honest bringing me no where!! haiz.. i so regret lar!! forget it lar!!while bloggin i keep listening to sad songs.. because noting nice is in my mind!!
